I was talking to somebody about this the other day, about perfectionism and how there are so many things that I want to do in my life, with my house, writing, everything, but I want to do my best, you know" Everybody does. For me, I feel like unless I give something 100%, it?s not even worth trying, and even when I do give 100%, I still see the things that I could have done better.
It?s a theme that?s been running through my life for the last few years, and to be honest, when I got pregnant, it got much worse.
Something happened with my hormones, and I don?t talk about it a lot on the blog, but I developed anxiety. It?s not something that, you know, I want to lead with ever, but I have it, and I?m working on it. I work on it every day. The person I was talking to was my therapist, and she said that sometimes 70% is good enough, you know. Sometimes 60%. Sometimes 50%.
I think most of us know these things, but it?s so easy to forget them?
I was telling her that the thought of doing things, like a task, becomes so debilitating for me sometimes that, because I want to do it well, but I don?t feel like I have the tools or the time or the energy, I won?t even do it at all. In my mind, I see this perfect picture of how the task should go, but because I feel so married to that thought, because I can?t do it this way or that way, I get paralyzed, and it?s? I?m kind of over it. I?m really over it.
This has held me back in so many aspects of my life, to be honest, with my f...